how did it end up 2012???

i think this blog will end up being about how IRRegularly i post. so on that note, till next year! :)

how did it end up 2011?

i was on point with that see you next year bit on my last blog post hwa hwa. it's over a year now and i can definitely say that hella shit has happened since then. but it's all good, today i find myself drenched in sweat in dapa, my father's hometown on siargao island in surigao del sur, which can be found in mindanao, the southern grouping of islands in the philippines. sheesh that took a long time to describe. it's so hot. and how beautiful here. it's hard not to romanticize the idea of just poppin a squat here at my aunt's guesthouse and escaping to learn tagalog and my family's dialect surigaonon and learn to surf and swim in General Luna for awhile. but alas, my fil-am new yorker self is a realist as well. that would only last me so long. but all things deserve a chance i think!

oh oh oh

burst of inspiration! so quick and perhaps ephemeral. here it is, my momentary inspired moment is this:

i had a great brunch with val today, where we discussed the malaise of undermotivation to do yo thang whatever it is. is it a dark place? mine doesn't feel dark- it's definitely nebulous, convoluted, mushy, covered in stuff... but perhaps i can attempt discipline here! i can blog away, every day, and post things and unclutter my brain on a blog that no one will read! brilliance, i say, brilliance!

so there it is. a moment. and alas it has passed.

see you next year!

ha ha ha

i was invited to a blog today and realized uh, i haven't posted on mine. so here's a post. there we go. this one counts fo sho don't it?

dang i missed january and so close to missing february

i'm sitting here with a face mask on thinking, how do i let time pass me by? no post in january and shoot, another day and february would be gone. but let me explain. it's like this, work three jobs, have two roles under each, have lots of great friends and waste time online and presto, another day gone by. but it's all good, i could think of worse ways to spend one's time. i love the work i do. and i love the people in my life. and i love my home. and to boot, i can clean up pretty good too. so. all in all, time is passing in a good way and rather than it pass me by, i reckon i'm living every minute that passes. see you next month!

the december post?

so i guess this is what it's come down to. a monthly post. mostly because of all the hustlin' and flowin'. still learning to flow, it's sometimes chaos this life, but i gotta live it like it's golden. today i did a craft sale, and fortunately sold a buncha shit, but it's an interesting process to be workin' toward something instead of just going through the motions of it all. i have a hard time being all i wanna be over here. and i'm involved in so much it can get too busy. ugh. this is starting to look like some kinda crappy journal entry over here. i'm bloggin why again? i think i had something to say. i will keep at it till it becomes more of what i want and if for now that means some boring monthly posts, let it be. i will keep working at it, and keep doing it. that's all i'm learning these days. i gotta do. gotta do me.

the november post

totally off day today is all i have to say. so much intensity in different parts of life i think my moons are colliding or something! but, alas, i've lived and learned enough to at least know that when it sucks it sucks and tomorrow is another day full of surprises. it's all good.