oh oh oh

burst of inspiration! so quick and perhaps ephemeral. here it is, my momentary inspired moment is this:

i had a great brunch with val today, where we discussed the malaise of undermotivation to do yo thang whatever it is. is it a dark place? mine doesn't feel dark- it's definitely nebulous, convoluted, mushy, covered in stuff... but perhaps i can attempt discipline here! i can blog away, every day, and post things and unclutter my brain on a blog that no one will read! brilliance, i say, brilliance!

so there it is. a moment. and alas it has passed.

see you next year!

ha ha ha

i was invited to a blog today and realized uh, i haven't posted on mine. so here's a post. there we go. this one counts fo sho don't it?

dang i missed january and so close to missing february

i'm sitting here with a face mask on thinking, how do i let time pass me by? no post in january and shoot, another day and february would be gone. but let me explain. it's like this, work three jobs, have two roles under each, have lots of great friends and waste time online and presto, another day gone by. but it's all good, i could think of worse ways to spend one's time. i love the work i do. and i love the people in my life. and i love my home. and to boot, i can clean up pretty good too. so. all in all, time is passing in a good way and rather than it pass me by, i reckon i'm living every minute that passes. see you next month!

the december post?

so i guess this is what it's come down to. a monthly post. mostly because of all the hustlin' and flowin'. still learning to flow, it's sometimes chaos this life, but i gotta live it like it's golden. today i did a craft sale, and fortunately sold a buncha shit, but it's an interesting process to be workin' toward something instead of just going through the motions of it all. i have a hard time being all i wanna be over here. and i'm involved in so much it can get too busy. ugh. this is starting to look like some kinda crappy journal entry over here. i'm bloggin why again? i think i had something to say. i will keep at it till it becomes more of what i want and if for now that means some boring monthly posts, let it be. i will keep working at it, and keep doing it. that's all i'm learning these days. i gotta do. gotta do me.

the november post

totally off day today is all i have to say. so much intensity in different parts of life i think my moons are colliding or something! but, alas, i've lived and learned enough to at least know that when it sucks it sucks and tomorrow is another day full of surprises. it's all good.

ha that flowing time of the month

don't mean to get all crimson tide but it's october... time for a post, my monthly post it seems... another month gone by and the economy's really in the shitter which means what for me? more hustlin' over here. collectin' them non-profit jobs while tryin' to make a profit. ain't that funny? but it's really all good, i cannot even express how great it is to be doing meaningful work. i truly have no complaints... ok, well maybe more profit in the non-profit sector, but really though, i care about what i do and that is more than what i can ask for. it's not that i didn't care about what i've done in the past- it would be unnatural for me to be "engaged" in things i don't care about. i guess what i mean more is that i actively care not just because i have a sick work ethic, but because what i'm working on truly matters to me on so many different personal and community building social levels. and that my friends, is success in my eyes and in my book. now if we could just make sure the crap economy doesn't cut funds that eventually leads to yet another layoff in the non-profit sector for me...

flowing for sure

32 is the new year and after hustlin' and hustlin' i'm flowin' along. still working the multi part time jobs but let me tell you- i value my freedom. part of my life is scheduling me, but knowing i dictate where i go and when is a beauteous thing. it's having options that i thrive on. and diversifying my entity is what gives me my luxe life. not for everyone, but letting me be. and i have no complaints right now. i just flow, till the next bridge i come to...